He Came to Heal
This article is not going to be a typical New Free Thinkers article. In fact, it’s less an article and more me pouring myself out onto this page so that if you can relate, you can realize that there is a God with healing in His wings.
Over the past few weeks, God has been working deep within me, down where no one can see what’s there – places I didn’t even acknowledge. He has let things from my past resurface so that I can come to the place where I’m so desperate that I will throw myself at his feet, laying down all that I am. I have experienced all over again the pain that comes from losing my mother and sister in a car accident. I have realized that for fifteen years I’ve buried my pain and harbored anger and resentment towards God for what happened. Finally I came to the place where that had been buried so long that there was no more room. My emotions, thoughts, and feelings all exploded and I found myself deep in depression, ready to ship it all in.
Two Fridays ago I planned exactly how I would end it. I thought that I could kill the pain. Then last Sunday God, in his awesome and overwhelming love, began the healing process that I have needed for years. This weekend He spoke into my life through people, continuing the healing process as I poured myself out to him.
If you have stuffed away your feelings and let them fester inside, let them go. Fall on your knees and pour everything out before the God who came to heal; He desires that you live a life of true joy.
“The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised.” (Luke 4:18)
300 words isn’t nearly enough to convey what I really wanted to convey.
I really appreciate this article for two reasons: first, it speaks to some very real human emotions and acknowledges that Christians deal with them. Even the “heroes of the faith” had bad days. For that matter, they had bad decades!
Second, it gives an answer. Most people don’t even write about their struggles; those that do often stop with describing their pain. Thank you for letting God take you all the way to His answer to pain – and sharing it.
Real world, real people, real answers. That should be everyone’s mentality if we’re going to help others.
It seems that God as been putting us through processes lately and bringing up stuff that we thought we dealt with and that was already taken care of.
I like Adam’s article because it shows us the truth of what happens when we bury something for so long…it comes back with more anger and more hurt the next time around.
I’m recently going through this process and you do feel emotionally drained, but when I finally lift my soul up in worship and surrender to God..healing happens.
I think God is trying to see when life seems to hard to bear, that we’ll come running to Him and collapsing in hHis arms.
Good Job Adam
Like Phillip said, real people, real emotions and sometimes inescapable feelings. If everyone were honest, we have all shaken our fist at God and blamed him for something, unless of course you fell out of heaven this morning – just wait, the day is not over yet.
As christians, we tend to internalize our issues with God because its not right to be mad at God, and it isn’t, but being real is important to him and our well being. God knows my hurt and anger and unless I confess before him my unforgiveness how can I hope to be made whole when the very one I resent wants to heal me. Forgiveness brings release and healing.
Thank you for sharing your REAL feelings with us Adam, May God finish that good work he has begun in you young man, you are destined for greatness!